Spent most of the day working, catching up on a lot of things that have been piling up for the past couple of months. I’ve been procrastinating (jogeum) since I’ve been spending much of my time with P, thus I had a lot of things that I was not able to work on so I had to catch up on those today.
And I spent the rest of the afternoon with Xavy for his Chinese event at school and the rest of the night working on the pending forms at work that I needed to migrate to 2023. But overall, it was a good day, we went to church in the morning and I felt like that was a good thing to do. I felt motivated by the end of the day, I suppose catching up on the pending stuff helped me a lot. It took my mind off P, for a bit.
Tomorrow is another day. I am hoping to be more motivated and more grateful than I felt today. I am hoping to catch up on a lot of work and possibly work on my pending immigration documents and some Upwork job hunting.
I need to go to the office early tomorrow because I want to get a lot of things done. I don’t have anything going on with my online job so I got a lot of free time. I know I promised I was going to go to Simala but I might not because of the weather. It depends. I’m really sorry Lord, I will pray the rosary again this week. I missed it today because we went to church in the morning.
Grabbing another can of beer and some sujo (I feel like I am becoming an alcoholic these days) so I can get a better sleep tonight even though I know I have to wake up really early. I hope it doesn’t rain tomorrow but a part of me hopes that it’s going to be a really cloudy day so in case P did go to Manila, he’s gonna get stranded there. I know it’s a bit vindictive but I can’t help it, I’m sorry.
Well, to sum up my day, it’s a better day than yesterday and I am happy that it turned out better. I was struggling so… I mean, I am still struggling, but it seems like most days it’s getting better although on some days I have setbacks. Eventually, I know it’s gonna get better. I just pray that whatever respect I have for him, is going to stay there. And I just hope and pray that I don’t move onto the anger stage because I know myself and I know that once I lost respect for him, I will have a hard time at work with him and so is he.
Xavy & Mom 