Redirection, not rejection.
Today, I am going to convince myself that what happened was not rejection but redirection. Honestly, somewhere along the few months that we were going out, I knew that it was not going to last. I saw the red flags early on but I chose to ignore them. I chose to focus on the green flags and I loved the feeling that he was making me special. I mean who doesn’t like the feeling when someone makes you feel special right? That was addicting.
But yes, I already knew it was not going to end well. But the stubborn me wanted to prolong the agony and dug myself a deeper grave. So now, let’s start climbing up and deal with the after-effects of our stubbornness.
Yep, it’s not going to be easy but we chose this path right? So we got to do what we got to do and move on. Maybe he did not love me or maybe he did, but that ain’t relevant anymore. What’s in the past is in the past. There are too many variables that won’t just fit in the equation, and the main one is that he’s still married to his wife even if they’ve been separated for over a decade. At the end of the day, he’s still legally married.
Now let’s focus on that.