The past few days I feel like drifting away. And the sad part is I don’t even have the strength to find something to hold on to. I just have this emptiness inside me that even Xavy can’t fill. Each day is filled with short moments of laughter and it’s what has kept me going. And please don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful for that. But at the end of the day and when the lights go out, I’m back.
Yes, that’s why I’ve been drinking myself to sleep lately. Helps me forget and I actually don’t get to feel anything anymore. I know this won’t fill that emptiness either. But I’m a hopeful fool, maybe, eventually all the alcohol will kill this emptiness.
So yes, if you see me around, bright and about. Don’t get deceived, we all have our demons.