Falling fvcking in love is a roller coaster of emotions. Fleeting emotions at that.
Yesterday I felt so high, we were together. And then now, I feel like shit, I didn’t hear from you. And it’s not like the feeling is fvcking mutual you know. So yeah, why did I even think you’d talk to me today. So this is exactly why I’ve kept myself guarded for the past few years. The fvcking “feels”.
The crazy thing is I even know that this was going nowhere but like fvck, I held on. I drowned myself in the illusion that those moments that our hands touched meant something more, the way you caressed my back meant something more.
But fvck nah, so why do I even bother?
Because I just fvcking do.